This picture was taken back in 2007 when I was 17 on my first trip to Dallas, Texas in the courtyard of the American Airlines Center. I used to love this picture, but now seeing it now and comparing it to what I look like now, I see a drastic change. To many others, you'll probably just see a younger version of me, now, but my perception of myself is probably a lot different from others. I do admit that I miss my straight teeth.. I had recently had my braces removed a couple months before this picture. Now, my teeth are jacked up again due to my own laziness and hatred towards wearing those painful retainers.... Boy do I regret that now.
Here are some more pictures of me from that year. I look at these and I think, I'm still the same, yet so different.
I'm also thinking about doing a timeline of photos from each year for the past 3-5 years to now to see how much I've changed, physically. If you didn't know before, I'm finally a gym goer and I'd like to see the change in my body and how it affects the look and fit of clothes on my body.
I believe that superficiality isn't a bad thing at all, of course, there are negative connotations to the word but everything has it's pros and cons. It all depends on where on the spectrum you decided to take them. I care about my outer appearance, but I believe that I'm just trying to find the best ways to accentuate what I have in the most appealing manner.
The slightest change in your eyebrows, hair, how you dress, makeup, walk, and even attitude can make a huge difference. I'm on a self discovery with myself to find the best combination of those aspects and more to be the best person I can. Of course, while simultaneously working on the inside as well.
Heidi Montag's 'Superficial' performed by HartzProduction